lost.

just because i'm losing,
doesn't mean i'm lost.
doesn't mean i'll stop.
doesn't mean i'll cross.

just because i'm hurting,
doesn't mean i'm hurt.
doesn't mean i didn't get what i deserved.
no better and no worse.

i just got lost.
every river that i tried to cross.
every door i ever tried was locked.
and i'm just waiting until the shine wears off.

you might be a big fish in a little pond.
doesn't mean you've won.
'cause along may come.
a bigger one.

and you'll be lost.
every river that you tried to cross.
every gun you ever held went off.
and i'm just waiting until the firing stopped.
and i'm just waiting until the shine wears off.

you happy?
you satisfied?
you finished yet?

i'm leaving now.

ain't this funny?

cynic vs. belief

I'm not clever enough to be a cynic,
so belief is the only option available to me.

if you're feeling sinister.

There must be something wrong with my eyes.
I can't take them off you.

where are you??

maleo coffee shop logo.

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m+w aksesoris logo.

another side job..another mind distraction..thanks to Pak Kiki Martin.


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GRRRR!!

Kalo katanya de'masip..

AKU RINDU..SETENGAH MATI! T_T

*tes toefl brengkes!

dedicated to RTW.

You cannot quit me so quickly.
There's no hope in you for me.
No corner you could squeeze me.
But I got all the time for you, love.

come here, maleo.

Ma"le*o\, n.
[From its native name.] (Zo["o]l.) A bird of Celebes (megacephalon maleo),
allied to the brush turkey. It makes mounds in which to lay its eggs.
The Maleo is monogamous, and members of a pair stay close to each other all the time.
source: (wikipedia).


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buat kamu.

I wish I could read your mind, not only your posts.

anak pintar dan hatinya.

"Lihat itu. Hatimu. Jatuh menjadi serpihan-serpihan kecil."
"Mana?"
"Tundukkan kepalamu sedikit. Ya. Begitu"
"Apa itu?"
"Itu HATImu, anak pintar."
"Apa yang terjadi dengannya?"
"Ia rusak. Tidak kah kau merasakan sakit?"
"Ya. Rasanya memang sakit."
"....."
"Semakin aku menyaksikan serpihan2 itu jatuh, semakin sakit rasanya."
"....."
"Apa yang harus aku lakukan?"
"Pelan-pelan kau ambil kembali serpihan-serpihan hatimu."
"Lalu?"
"Lalu kau tata kembali dengan cantik sampai bentuknya kembali seperti sedia kala."
"Apakah aku cukup kuat melakukan itu?"
"Oh. Tentu saja. Kau kuat. Sangat kuat. Ayo lekas, tundukkan badanmu dan ambil serpihan-serpihan yang masih layak untuk kau ambil."
"Mengapa aku menangis?"
"Tidak apa. Nanti mengering dengan sendirinya. Ya. Begitu. Anak pintar"

don't go.

what is to say.

a message.

I'm standing on a hilltop, a hundred miles from home.
I can see the light surrounds me.
I want you to show me round.
I'm standing here.
I'm looking through your window.
I might just have the key.
I could park a juggernaut in your mouth.
And I can feel a hurricane when you shout.
I really don't think you could know.
That I'm in heaven when you smile.

love letter.

once there was a boy, who was every high school dreams.
he played guitar, he had it all.

once there was a boy, who i thought could be redeemed.
i shed twenty four tears for him.
and now i lose it all.

once there was a boy, who i soon forgot.
because there's more to life that i want, than to sit, cry, and rot.

bom.

Reaksi kimia yang ditimbulkan ketika emosi, perasaan kecewa, tidak terima, serta menstruasi yang datangnya terlambat adalah senyawa eksplosif yang mampu menggoncangkan seluruh badan dengan kekuatan 8 skala richter, dibarengi dengan turunnya hujan deras yang tidak lagi tawar melainkan asin dari sudut mata kiri dan kanan. Tidak lupa hilangnya kenyamanan tidur, nafsu makan, konsentrasi kerja, dan banyak lagi yang lainnya. Hebat ya?

Jingga

4.22 sore hari.
Kantor, mengantuk, sedikit tidak enak hati.
Tulisan untuk kamu, karena entah kenapa aku kangen kamu.

Sore.
Sekitar satu setengah jam lagi.
Adzan Maghrib,
dan langit pun tidak biru lagi.

Kita akan bertemu disana.
Di bangku taman,
di bawah lampu jingga yang temaram.
Dengan jalan aspal yang basah karena hujan.
Lalu kita pun saling bercerita.
Ceritakan keangkuhanmu,
kepayahanmu,
keberhasilanmu,
dan hentikanlah kutukanmu!!
Lepaskanlah tawa!
Jangan angkat dagumu terlalu tinggi!!

'Aku gak gila..!!'
'Aku gak marah..!!!'
'Aku gak sombong..!!'

Lekas ceritakan.
Aku pun tak menuduhmu seperti itu!!
Aku mendengarmu.

Matanya berbinar ketika ia bercerita,
sambil menatap ujung langit seakan ia melukis langit dengan matanya.
Menyanyikan malam itu dengan lagu kesukaannya.
Menembus malam dengan sepeda motor kuningnya.
Dan aku melambaikan tanganku kepadanya namun tidak tahu pasti apakah ia melihatnya.